Fear "almost took my breath away," former journalist Amanda Lindhout says about her return to East Africa this summer for the first time since spending 15 months in captivity in Somalia.
CBC's Curt Petrovich accompanied Lindhout as she travelled to Kenya for several weeks in July to see first-hand the mass flight of starving Somalis into refugee camps, a trip partly intended as research for a charity she founded but also a mission to confront her own demons.
It was on her first day in Kenya, on a sandy road to a refugee camp in Dadaab, home to many Somali refugees, that the full significance of her return to the region hit her.
"It was on a road just like that that I was taken," said Lindhout. "And the fear that I felt in that initial trip from the compound to the camp was very intense, very intense. It almost took my breath away."
"I don't think I was totally prepared for how hard it was actually going to be for me," she says.